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Assalamualaikum Currently diffusing: YL Clove and Eucalyptus Radiata After surviving the pandemic for two and a half years, Covid 19 finally got to me. And boyyy, do I had it bad! Two weeks ago, my throat was killing me. I decided to do a home swab test and it turned out negative but the pain just won't go away. So off I went to the hospital and my doctor diagnosed me as having quite an episode of throat infection (there were many white spots on my throat which explained the pain) and she sent me home with a bag of antibiotics, paracetamol and flu meds. Home I went and for the next three days, I had the worst fever ever! I couldn't even stand on my own and had to be helped to the bathroom. I could only eat white bread during the whole time. My bed was my life guys! But I still husnuzon as I had experience this kinda fever a few years back. Only that this time the fever came with a package of sore throat, cough and flu. I had no suspicion of me having Covid 19 or anything like t...

Assalamualaikum Currently diffusing YL: Pine and Eucalyptus Radiata I wrote this entry title months ago. I didn't manage to find time to even start the entry so I have no idea what I was about to write back then. But somehow, months later, in fact even the year has changed (Happy 2021 by the way. Nothing new. Covid-19 is still around more than ever), this title is still suitable with my current mood & situation. Alhamdulillah I finally got my long awaited break from work. And no, not because of the working from home thingy due to Covid-19. That is a whole other story. Long story short, WFH is not fun at all. So the deal is I am now officially 6 days into my unpaid leave! Yippee yeay! Ok I know, this is not my first time taking unpaid leave from work. In fact this is my third time already (I think). I have taken so many unpaid leave in the past (due to my many health issues. My fam & close friends know why) that taking it now seems trivial. Only that this time I am taking it...

Assalamualaikum Currently diffusing YL: Thieves and Spearmint. I miss writing. So many things have happened this year and 2020 is definitely not like what my small self had imagined. Things had been rough for everyone this year. Well, there are so many causes to begin with but especially because of the Covid-19 pandemic. What is Covid-19? Well, it's a scary virus that just keeps on evolving and mutating while attacking many.  It is sneaky and you never know when it's near and suddenly it is too late, you're already contracted by it. And worst, it is a global pandemic and every country around the world are currently struggling to fight it including us here in Malaysia. Tbh I have lost count how many phases of Movement Control Order (MCO) we have been in, so lets say maybe now we are in our 6th or 7th phase of MCO, I think. Since March, I have gone through 3 times of swab tests due to countless reasons (close contact, to be warded into a hospital therefore it's one of the...

Assalamualaikum Currently listening: 1. Falling Like The Stars - James Arthur 2. Hold Me While You Wait - Lewis Capaldi Though we just entered December, I gotta say I am so over 2019 already. This year has been really something for me. So many going ons, physically and emotionally. But then again, who am I kidding right? Honestly, I have been saying I had tough year since, urm I donno, 2014? Part of me know what is my biggest struggle since the said year. And by God, the struggle ain't getting any easier. In fact, it's getting super hard each year. And I feel like I'm drowning most of the time. Like I'm losing my grip over my whole emotions. I don't really like to talk about my feelings much with people. I mean, "hate" would be a strong word to use but it is true. I hate confiding in people, not because I have trust issue. But I hate it when people say I am being a crybaby who is not grateful and to blind to see how blessed my l...

Assalamualaikum As promised, I'm gonna share my laparoscopy experience in this post. To those who haven't read the first part, do check it out here: 61st: I Got Two Holes On My Belly (Part 1)   . First thing first, let me do some disclaimer. This is a personal experience of mine and it is not gonna be the same for everyone.  But I really hope that what I'm about to share can give extra courage to those who are going to undergo the same procedure. As I have mentioned before,  Dr Hamid Arshat  advised me to undergo a laparoscopy procedure in order to get thorough view sebab masa initial scanning tak nampak any cyst or fibroid inside my uterus. But based on my monthly period pain, Dr Hamid said there must be some reasons as to why it happens so frequently. It didn't take much (actually it didn't take anything at all except for Dr Hamid's words) to convince me to go under the knife (but laparoscopy procedure takde belah-belah pun so yeay...

Assalamualaikum People who are close to me mostly know that I have a serious period pain problem. I've been living with this monthly issue for years, as far as I remember my period pain started when I was around 15 or 16. Orang kata alah bisa, tegal biasa. Well, guess what, NOT for period pain (those who know, MUST know what I mean). It ain't easy living with this condition. Back then, I had to skip school or call my parents to pick me up at school because of the unbearable pain. And when I entered university, the pain still hasn't go away. Numerous lectures I was absent from and some lecturers did give me a hard time and even made jokes about it (come to think about it, those jokes were quite sexist. Curse you, Baby Boomers, who aren't woke enough to learn sensitivity!). But the worst, is now. Two words = Working life. You know how your job just won't give you a chance to take a break even when you feel like you're dying? And your boss and col...

Assalamualaikum First and foremost, I wanna wish everyone a very Happy Ramadan!! We are already in week 3 and may Allah ease the remaining days of the month for us. InsyaAllah~ I have been absent from blogging for months. To be honest, I really wish I could write more. There's so many things going on in my mind lately. And I have been thinking of ways to put them all out there. It's not because I don't have time to write. I do have plenty (last month I was on a 1-month half paid leave. But we'll get there later). It is more of because I find it very difficult for me to express them. And that really bugs me you know. I mean, I have been really dedicated to my blog since I started it back in 2013 (well at least for the first few years. After that I have been quite busy starting my career and stuffs. But you know what I mean right). I feel very confident and comfortable to write about what's on my mind here. And ideas just flow from my brain right to ...

Assalamualaikum Hi guys!!! Happy 2019!!! By the way, my entry title is just so random. I don't have anything big planned for this year actually. I just wanna have a peaceful, less conflict, less drama, less shenanigan and I donno, maybe some time off from work (?). We are 2 months deep into 2019 and I am still not over the fact that 2018 has gone by just like that. I traveled quite a lot last year (gosh, saying 2018 as last year is so weird. I'm still not used to it). Lots of first times for me. First time visiting Indonesia (Medan). First time going overseas with my husband, just the two of us (Bali). First time organized my family overseas vacation without using any travel agency (Perth). First time working in a small Ministry (Kementerian Wilayah Persekutuan). Also lots of second times as well. Second time traveling overseas with my in-laws (Medan). Second time having miscarriage. Second time low key hating to move to a new Ministry. But I wen...

Assalamualaikum Selamat hari raya!!! This year's raya is my first time ever balik kampung by flight. "Kemeriahan" airport with manusia is expected and all and I am totally prepared for that (and I'm all good with it. No issue at all). But who would have thought that my husband and I would be stranded for 3 hours at the airport on the night before raya?? 3 whole hours just sitting there on the (uncomfortable) chair and waiting and waiting and waiting some more for our plane to arrive. I was hungry (buka puasa only with super expensive sandwich that we bought from the small cafe near our boarding gate and shared a bottle of mineral water with my husband coz I thought our flight is gonna be on time a.k.a 7.45 pm so why nak have a huge meal before departure right??) and also we are taking flight to Penang and need to commute another 1 to 2 hours by car before arriving at our destination, Baling, Kedah. Jauh ok. So there I was, thinking what an interesting si...

Assalamualaikum Been a long while since I last wrote an entry about my life. But somehow I figured this news is just too important to be left out. This is something remarkable. Something meaningful. Something priceless. That I just had to share it with you guys. Some of you guys mungkin dah tahu that I have been married for two years already now. But frankly, my husband and I, kitorang takde specific planning on when to get our first child. I have always been regular monthly. Never missed my expected dates, well maybe for a day or two but that's it. That is how we go about month after month all this while. So when I was suddenly late last month, kitorang macam wondering "Is it time? Mungkinkah rezeki dari Allah telah menjenguk tiba for us?" As like any other first time future parents, we were very excited. Excited sampai malam tu jugak rasa nak pergi borong semua Pregnancy Test Kits yang ada jual dekat Watsons and Guardian. But unfortunately, the first...

CONFESSION BY : *Aryana (Female, 28, Government Servant, Married) Assalamualaikum I guess it is about time for this kind of confession to be made.  All those cynicism, umpatan, kejian, fitnah dan ketidakadilan kepada golongan sebegini must be stopped. Golongan yang selalu dipandang serong. Golongan yang selalu dianaktirikan. Golongan yang selalu disalah anggap. Obviously everyone will eventually fall sick one way or another. But ada sesetengah golongan manusia (read : yang kurang bernasib baik) yang akan lebih kerap jatuh sakit berbanding orang lain. Istilah saintifik, saya taktahu. Tapi pengalaman sebenar, saya lebih daripada tahu. Sikit-sikit, sakit kepala. Sikit-sikit, demam. Sikit-sikit, ke klinik. Sikit-sikit, warded. As a person who has numerous health issues (migrain, gastritis, menstrual cramps, acute sinus, just to name a few. Hopefully janganlah bertambah-tambah lagi), saya dah merasa bagaimana sukarnya kehidupan berkerjaya bila berhadap...

Assalamualaikum I DID IT!!  Alhamdulillah~after several (failed) attempts of ke-noob2-an seorang blogger suam-suam kuku ini, I finally managed to revamp the look of my blog. So, how do you like it?? =D Hope you guys are just as excited as me regarding this new look.  Hoho~tried to make my blog more eye-friendly and minimal. Dengan harapan orang tetap singgah walaupun takde entri baru. Ahahahahahh~ Anywaysss, di kesempatan ini, saya ingin mengucapkan SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH RAMADHAN kepada semua bloggerMoks yang beragama Islam. Jangan lupa bayar zakat kaysss~ InsyaAllah soon (please percaya this time =P), I will upload an entry regarding my trip to Melbourne, Australia last month. It was a very fun journey and I have to say that apart from my beloved country, Malaysia, Australia might just be a nice option as a country to reside in (we never know right). Waah gitu. Statement berani tu. Nak tahu kenapa, kita tunggu entri pasal trip tu kays. Salam me...

Assalamualaikum Diam tak diam, it's been more than a year ever since I last updated my blog. Yes, you read it right. More than a YEAR (jadah, blogger apa update blog setahun sekali. Choiii~). So many things have happened to me during 2015 until now. And I don't think there'll be any single post which is long enough to cater everything that I direly wanted to tell you guys. Seriously, if I can, I would loooooove to write a heck of a long post that'll make you guys wanna curse me, yet at the same time, wanna read it alllllll the way till the end (confident tu penting yaww~). My writing style might have changed due to my current lifestyle (chewahh~cakap nak dramatik je kan). Actually what I'm tryna say is that, I no longer have the time (READ: sebenarnya malas. Lalala~) to sekejap italic, sekejap un-italic kan my font based on the language that I use. Therefore, pandai-pandai laa korang classify kan bahasa Malaysia ke bahasa Inggeris ke bahasa Sanskr...