Cakap Cakap by Si Arnab Gemok

Assalamualaikum Hello guys, HAPPY 2020!!! Source: happynewyearwishess.com Dulu masa kecik-kecik selalu fikir lambatnya lagi nak tahun 2020. And now, we are finally here, man. For late 80s babies like me, basically we grew up with the phrase Wawasan 2020. Masa Pendidikan Seni, confirmed every single one of us mesti pernah kena lukis "Sila bayangkan tahun 2020". Pastu gigih laa kau melukis kereta terbang, robot hidup di kalangan manusia, highway bertingkek-tingkek, orang pergi kerja pakai jet pack bagai (HAHA!). Jenuh mintak mak bapak masing-masing belikan water color jenama Buncho dengan drawing block berbuku-buku. Macam ala-ala movie Tomorrowland. Serius sama. Cuba korang tengok movie tu and compare dengan lukisan tahun 2020 korang masa darjah 2 Bestari. :P Maybe gambaran kita untuk tahun 2020 tu jauh sama sekali tapi we did grow older and things do changed. Dulu melukis kereta terbang sambil kesat hingus kat baju sekolah, sekarang menghad...

Assalamualaikum Currently listening: 1. Falling Like The Stars - James Arthur 2. Hold Me While You Wait - Lewis Capaldi Though we just entered December, I gotta say I am so over 2019 already. This year has been really something for me. So many going ons, physically and emotionally. But then again, who am I kidding right? Honestly, I have been saying I had tough year since, urm I donno, 2014? Part of me know what is my biggest struggle since the said year. And by God, the struggle ain't getting any easier. In fact, it's getting super hard each year. And I feel like I'm drowning most of the time. Like I'm losing my grip over my whole emotions. I don't really like to talk about my feelings much with people. I mean, "hate" would be a strong word to use but it is true. I hate confiding in people, not because I have trust issue. But I hate it when people say I am being a crybaby who is not grateful and to blind to see how blessed my l...

Assalamualaikum As promised, I'm gonna share my laparoscopy experience in this post. To those who haven't read the first part, do check it out here: 61st: I Got Two Holes On My Belly (Part 1)   . First thing first, let me do some disclaimer. This is a personal experience of mine and it is not gonna be the same for everyone.  But I really hope that what I'm about to share can give extra courage to those who are going to undergo the same procedure. As I have mentioned before,  Dr Hamid Arshat  advised me to undergo a laparoscopy procedure in order to get thorough view sebab masa initial scanning tak nampak any cyst or fibroid inside my uterus. But based on my monthly period pain, Dr Hamid said there must be some reasons as to why it happens so frequently. It didn't take much (actually it didn't take anything at all except for Dr Hamid's words) to convince me to go under the knife (but laparoscopy procedure takde belah-belah pun so yeay...