Cakap Cakap by Si Arnab Gemok

Assalamualaikum Currently diffusing YL: Thieves and Spearmint. I miss writing. So many things have happened this year and 2020 is definitely not like what my small self had imagined. Things had been rough for everyone this year. Well, there are so many causes to begin with but especially because of the Covid-19 pandemic. What is Covid-19? Well, it's a scary virus that just keeps on evolving and mutating while attacking many.  It is sneaky and you never know when it's near and suddenly it is too late, you're already contracted by it. And worst, it is a global pandemic and every country around the world are currently struggling to fight it including us here in Malaysia. Tbh I have lost count how many phases of Movement Control Order (MCO) we have been in, so lets say maybe now we are in our 6th or 7th phase of MCO, I think. Since March, I have gone through 3 times of swab tests due to countless reasons (close contact, to be warded into a hospital therefore it's one of the...

Assalamualaikum Hello guys, HAPPY 2020!!! Source: happynewyearwishess.com Dulu masa kecik-kecik selalu fikir lambatnya lagi nak tahun 2020. And now, we are finally here, man. For late 80s babies like me, basically we grew up with the phrase Wawasan 2020. Masa Pendidikan Seni, confirmed every single one of us mesti pernah kena lukis "Sila bayangkan tahun 2020". Pastu gigih laa kau melukis kereta terbang, robot hidup di kalangan manusia, highway bertingkek-tingkek, orang pergi kerja pakai jet pack bagai (HAHA!). Jenuh mintak mak bapak masing-masing belikan water color jenama Buncho dengan drawing block berbuku-buku. Macam ala-ala movie Tomorrowland. Serius sama. Cuba korang tengok movie tu and compare dengan lukisan tahun 2020 korang masa darjah 2 Bestari. :P Maybe gambaran kita untuk tahun 2020 tu jauh sama sekali tapi we did grow older and things do changed. Dulu melukis kereta terbang sambil kesat hingus kat baju sekolah, sekarang menghad...

Assalamualaikum Currently listening: 1. Falling Like The Stars - James Arthur 2. Hold Me While You Wait - Lewis Capaldi Though we just entered December, I gotta say I am so over 2019 already. This year has been really something for me. So many going ons, physically and emotionally. But then again, who am I kidding right? Honestly, I have been saying I had tough year since, urm I donno, 2014? Part of me know what is my biggest struggle since the said year. And by God, the struggle ain't getting any easier. In fact, it's getting super hard each year. And I feel like I'm drowning most of the time. Like I'm losing my grip over my whole emotions. I don't really like to talk about my feelings much with people. I mean, "hate" would be a strong word to use but it is true. I hate confiding in people, not because I have trust issue. But I hate it when people say I am being a crybaby who is not grateful and to blind to see how blessed my l...