57th: EVERYWHERE BUT HERE

Assalamualaikum

Oh hey, guess what?

This is my third post this year.

Wow, I'm on fire guys!!

I have been thinking since I wrote my last post as to why lately I seem to be losing touch to blog.

I mean, I just don't get what is wrong with me? I still love writing and membebel-ing. But I feel that my writing skill has declined a.k.a. mereput a.k.a. sendu big time.

So after many sleepless nights of thinking (or more likely Netflix binge-watching), I've come to a conclusion: I am everywhere but here.

I mean, my body is here, my fingers are typing but my mind keeps going wild you know.

Sometimes while I'm writing, I keep thinking " Ada lagi ke orang baca blog nowadays?" or "Who will read this?" or "Will people think I'm lame for still blogging about my personal life?" coz you know now blog is all about being a marketing tool to sell oneself, therefore this blog is totally out of question coz we all know how minimal I blog and seriously I really can't see how this blog can become a platform for me to market myself to get endorsement from any brands, i.e. blogger tak laku. Herr~

Or worst, "What if people from my workplace/my jiran/my distant relatives who barely know me found my blog and judge me based on what I wrote here?"

Darn. So many questions and worries and doubts until I can't even focus on what to write.

Hence, today, I am making a revelation.

From now on, I will write whatever I feel like writing. I will blog whatever I feel like blogging (well of course within boundary. I mean, I ain't gonna use my blog as a space to tarnish someone's name. Also this blog will forever remain family friendly. Therefore, please click subscribe for more family fun entertainment).

Plus, this blog is built based on my fondness towards writing and also journaling.

I wrote like gazillions of diaries since my childhood years.

And I always tried my best to keep them hidden in a stash somewhere in my room but somehow, mysteriously, my mom will always find them and read them (Read: without feeling guilty at all) like they were meant to be written for her.

Like hello Mama, that's my diary, not one of your novels.

I'll get so mad (more embarrassed actually) whenever she quotes my teen-angst phrases every time we argue on something. And Bapak will be like "Oh, so this is what I've been missing. Must read that diary too." Guys, seriously, stop reading my diary. *roll eyes*

But hey look at me now, publicly publishing about how and what I'm feeling to the whole world coz why not. My parents knew everything already so wtv man.

Haha. Just kidding. I bet many of you guys have experienced this too right?

Gigih menulis diari, siap beli marker pen warna-warni. Tulis pasal crush kat kelas sebelah.

Tiba-tiba mak kau baca and kena marah sebab pergi sekolah sibuk nak crush2 plak.

Good old days guys, good old days.

Anywaysss, back to the bunch of questions that kept me, no, refrained me from writing genuinely a.k.a. lengthily (it seems my entries have become shorter and shorter these days. Yup, I noticed that guys, I noticed), I guess I have nothing to worry about anymore.

This blog is a reflection of me and the life that I go through daily.

Why blog if you just can't express yourself truly and wholeheartedly. Am I right?

I won myself a mini unicorn at a very expensive funfair.

I donno why but funfair is totally my jam regardless of how old I am now.

Quote of the day: Just be yourself. People will always find way/s to judge you. Don't let that fact hold you back from enjoying your life to the fullest. But always remember to be kind and polite and badass at the same time. I know you know what I mean.

Salam menggemok and Toodles~

Assalamualaikum and Have an awesome week ahead.